Well, it's January 27...27 days into the new me. Calculating that I wanted to lose about 2 lbs a week...I should be down to, oh about 140-141. Enter weigh in this morning....149. SERIOUSLY!!!! (I can tell you that it is not muscle weight either). Here's the thing...I've cut back on soda (I love Dr. Pepper too much to give it up altogether, so I went the first week of Jan. without one, then had one, waited another week to have another...etc. I have had about 3 this week though so far...but they are 20 oz each, 250 calories); I've been working out at least 3 times a week (obviously my goal is 6, but those 3 workouts are steady compared to one workout here, one workout there that I've been doing the past year); and I've been keeping my junk food in check (hardest thing ever btw). So what is going on?!?!
First, I would like to blame part of it on the fact that aunt flow showed up again yesterday...4 days early. Her visit always puts a cramp in my good progress (literally). So, that might count for a few pounds...but definitely not 8-9!! I'm seriously frustrated right now. Now, if this were a couple of months ago, I would have drowned my sorrows in something sugary (how come whenever you go clothes shopping, or weigh yourself, you get depressed and immediately want to reach for comfort food that will definitely NOT help the problem?), but I came alive, strapped on my hand weights and did a butt kicking workout of Turbo Jam this AM. (I love how when I have all this extra water weight from the big P in my abdomen, it jiggles around as I am working out....lovely.) (oh yes, can't you picture it! lol)
So, good start to the day. I just found out (meaning I just took the time) to clock the distance from our house to the boys' school....1.2 miles. How come it seems sooooo much farther?!?! So, my goal is to walk to pick them up in the afternoon and all walk home together (when the days are nice like they are today). Burning off an extra 200 calories will be nice.
I've been watching "I used to be Fat" on MTV...it makes me want a treadmill or elliptical machine in our house. I could so use that for the whole hour the show's on (watching workout shows while working out motivates me so much more than watching workout videos and actually doing what they tell me to. make sense?). But, since we don't have the $$ for one, I will have to stick with my good old workout videos.
Anyways...here's to hoping the next few weeks will be good to me (and I will be good in watching what I eat and doing more workouts). My 29th birthday is in less than 2 months and I want to look killer for the last bday of my 20s....motivate me!!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Extra Incentives
I've been doing really well with eating a lot better, but not so much on the working out everyday. I have a million excuses to why it doesn't get done and so I'm learning to try and find a way around those excuses. This week Shawn has been on a training schedule for part of his job and so he's been working 8-5. Now, I know this is an ideal schedule for some people to have, but we are so used to his schedule being nights that it completely threw me off. Instead of being able to work out at night after the boys go to bed like I normally try to do (I am not a morning workout person at all anymore...unless it's the 9:15 class at the gym) I've instead had to be the "wife" which is great because I love spending time with my husband, it just gave me an excuse not to workout. So, yesterday night, I told him I was going to the gym for a Zumba class and it felt so good to get out and get moving! I love going to classes because, even though I feel like an idiot doing Zumba, I actually work out for the whole hour and don't get "too" bored. While I'm at home working out, all I can think about is all the stuff that still needs to get done.
So anyways, I haven't even weighed myself this week. I wanted to lose all the water weight from my period and then try and get back to a normal schedule before I stepped on the scale again. I want to see that my efforts are paying off and not get discouraged if the scale hadn't budged (or for some reason went up! lol).
Not only do I have that 10k Mud Race in June, I now have extra incentive to get into better shape...a 9 day cruise to the Caribbean that we are going on in October! I'm so excited but hate being in a swim suit!! So, since I want to practically be able to live in a swim suit for 9 days I think I should look the part too!! Hopefully the extra incentive equals extra motivation!
So anyways, I haven't even weighed myself this week. I wanted to lose all the water weight from my period and then try and get back to a normal schedule before I stepped on the scale again. I want to see that my efforts are paying off and not get discouraged if the scale hadn't budged (or for some reason went up! lol).
Not only do I have that 10k Mud Race in June, I now have extra incentive to get into better shape...a 9 day cruise to the Caribbean that we are going on in October! I'm so excited but hate being in a swim suit!! So, since I want to practically be able to live in a swim suit for 9 days I think I should look the part too!! Hopefully the extra incentive equals extra motivation!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
It's Here
*warning...might be TMI for some of you in this post...
It's here...and has been since the 2nd (only 2 days into my new year resolutions). I knew it was coming, and every time it does, it ruins all my hard work to eat better and exercise more because it leaves me feeling like all i want to do is crawl into bed in my sweats and just lay there with a heating pad for a week. It's ruined all my efforts in the past, but this time, I knew that I would just have to push through it...I would still have to work out, still have to eat healthy even though all I want is some chocolate and a big Dr. Pepper. And I did it. I've pushed through...for 3 days at least. I have been to the gym, and have worked out at home. I've kept my calories under 1300/day and I haven't had a Dr. Pepper. I've still worn sweats for most of the time, taking them off only if I REALLY needed to go somewhere. (I do get a lot more done around my house when I'm in sweats because it's easier to paint or clean when you're not dressed up). So, even though I've probably gained 5 lbs in the past day or two...I know that it's not fat...it's just water weight from my stupid monthly visitor and it should go away by next week ( and I'm hoping by then to have lost some weight). It does make it feel like all my efforts aren't worth it because I don't see immediate results...but, again, I just have to push through. And that's what I am doing.
It's here...and has been since the 2nd (only 2 days into my new year resolutions). I knew it was coming, and every time it does, it ruins all my hard work to eat better and exercise more because it leaves me feeling like all i want to do is crawl into bed in my sweats and just lay there with a heating pad for a week. It's ruined all my efforts in the past, but this time, I knew that I would just have to push through it...I would still have to work out, still have to eat healthy even though all I want is some chocolate and a big Dr. Pepper. And I did it. I've pushed through...for 3 days at least. I have been to the gym, and have worked out at home. I've kept my calories under 1300/day and I haven't had a Dr. Pepper. I've still worn sweats for most of the time, taking them off only if I REALLY needed to go somewhere. (I do get a lot more done around my house when I'm in sweats because it's easier to paint or clean when you're not dressed up). So, even though I've probably gained 5 lbs in the past day or two...I know that it's not fat...it's just water weight from my stupid monthly visitor and it should go away by next week ( and I'm hoping by then to have lost some weight). It does make it feel like all my efforts aren't worth it because I don't see immediate results...but, again, I just have to push through. And that's what I am doing.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Addiction
Today was my first day being off of Dr. Pepper (every time I say that I sound like a drug addict and that I should be in rehab! lol). Really though, I know when my Dr. Pepper addiction started. I've always loved Dr. Pepper...but could definitely have it in moderation....maybe once a week. I even had to give it up altogether when I was pregnant with Cole and going through my heart problems. I couldn't have even the slightest bit of caffeine because I didn't want my heart to speed up more than normal. After my first heart surgery (Cole was 2 months old) the doctor gave me the OK to start drinking my little bit of caffeine again. Being a Stay-at-home-mom with two kids (Blake who was just over a year and a half and Cole who was just barely passing the 3 month mark) I wanted a way to just get out of the house, corral the kids in their car seats for a few minutes and get a little break... and so my break became driving to Wendy's for a Dr. Pepper. That became my everyday ritual....and has not stopped until today. Crazy, I know. That is why I decided to quit cold turkey. I know that in all actuality, a 20 oz Dr. Pepper a day isn't really going to affect my diet too much. That's about 250 calories so I can always factor that in. It was more the fact that I was so addicted to having it each day. So, a few weeks down the road I might introduce Dr. Pepper back into my life again....but maybe only once a week this time around.
On a side note- I worked out for an hour today to my old school "Firm" DVD. I just signed up for the World Famous Mud Run in San Diego on June 11th. It's a 10K run with hills, tire obstacles, river crossings, two 5-foot walls with mud on both sides, reservoir crossing (3 feet deep), tunnel crawl, slippery hill climb, and the final 30-foot mud pit. My friend, Teresa, and I, along with her 3 sister-in-laws, are doing it together. I have a LOT of butt kicking workouts to do to prepare myself for that, but I am excited!! So far, the new year has started off on a good note:0)
On a side note- I worked out for an hour today to my old school "Firm" DVD. I just signed up for the World Famous Mud Run in San Diego on June 11th. It's a 10K run with hills, tire obstacles, river crossings, two 5-foot walls with mud on both sides, reservoir crossing (3 feet deep), tunnel crawl, slippery hill climb, and the final 30-foot mud pit. My friend, Teresa, and I, along with her 3 sister-in-laws, are doing it together. I have a LOT of butt kicking workouts to do to prepare myself for that, but I am excited!! So far, the new year has started off on a good note:0)
Friday, December 31, 2010
The Very Beginning
When I was a senior in High School we had a school blood drive. In order to donate you had to get written permission from your 2nd period teacher. When I went to have her sign my slip she asked if I even weighed enough to give blood. Would you believe that that statement was the best compliment I think I have ever received? Why? Because I worked my butt off to get down to 117 lbs...the lowest that my body would allow me to be. I still felt so fat. 117 wasn't good enough for me....but it did make me feel a little better that my teacher thought I weighed less than 110 lbs.
Beginning my senior year of high school, I would wake up every morning at 3:30 to get an hour long workout into my day before showering and heading to early morning seminary. After seminary I went to school for 4 periods, went to work for 6 hours as the receptionist at a car dealership, and then came home to do another 30-45 minute workout before finishing up homework and crashing into bed by 11:30. The next day would begin the same way. I could live off of four hours of sleep. Not only that, but I had an amazing willpower when it came to food. I didn't eat sweets and always turned down cake and other sugary foods at office birthday parties. I got salads whenever Shawn and I ate out at restaurants or fast food places and I even lived on almost nothing but pineapple for a week or two. I would take my own "snack foods" with me (low-fat nilla wafers..the only sugar I allowed myselsf) whenever I went to other people's houses where I knew there would be things like cake and ice cream. It was so amazing the power I had to say no. And yet, my weight would not budge from 117.
I started adding more workouts in...the hour between school and work, I would come home and do at least 30 minutes on the mini stairclimber I had found at a yard sale. When I was doing my homework I would make myself take 5 minute breaks just to workout on that thing again. I started drinking only slimfast shakes for lunch and also began to use laxatives. I tore up my stomach and intestines and was in so much pain from the overuse of the laxatives that my mom had to drive me to the ER and the only thing I could concentrate on, besides the unbearable pain, was the fact that the nurse noticed how slow my resting heart rate was and that I must be a marathon runner or something. That gave me pride. My way of thinking was totally twisted. After I had to stop using the laxatives I began binging. Everything I had tried so hard to resist just became an addiction to me. I could never make myself throw up though and since laxatives were out of the question I just ended up gaining weight. By the time prom came around I was up to 125...7 lb weight gain in less than 2 months. It may not sound like much, but I felt like a cow. When I look at pictures from my senior prom now, I think of how skinny I used to be...and to think, I thought I was the good year blimp that day (I was even on my period so I probably weighed a couple more extra pounds in those photos.)
My problems with food have never really gone away, but over the next couple of years it did get a little easier to find balance. I was still always on a "diet" and wouldn't allow myself some things but I wasn't as crazy about it either. I became a personal trainer at 24 Hour Fitness and learned a lot about nutrition and training. I knew what it took to take off extra pounds if I needed to and so when I got pregnant the first time I thought I could allow myself to eat all the things that I hadn't before because I knew that once the baby was born I could just take it off again. I gained 65 lbs during my first pregnancy. And that wasn't even until the 2nd half. The first half I had only gained about 5 lbs since I was taking 3 dance classes a day at the college and eating pretty well. Well, to make a very long story short...I lost all but 10 lbs before I got pregnant again (8 months later) but then my heart problems began. With a mixture of medication and not being able to work out I found myself not being able to lose the baby weight as fast as I wanted too. Another long story short...I have been a yo-yo loser and gainer these last couple of years. In 2009 I did 2 5ks, a duathlon and a triathlon and weighed 136...still not where I wanted to be, but definitely fitter. Now I weigh 147 and that is just not acceptable. So....here begins my journey to create the me I want to be. It's not about finding myself, or getting back to where I was...because let's face it, I have had so many issues with food and exercise in the past that I just want to start over, begin fresh and take on a new mind set. 2011....this is my year!
Beginning my senior year of high school, I would wake up every morning at 3:30 to get an hour long workout into my day before showering and heading to early morning seminary. After seminary I went to school for 4 periods, went to work for 6 hours as the receptionist at a car dealership, and then came home to do another 30-45 minute workout before finishing up homework and crashing into bed by 11:30. The next day would begin the same way. I could live off of four hours of sleep. Not only that, but I had an amazing willpower when it came to food. I didn't eat sweets and always turned down cake and other sugary foods at office birthday parties. I got salads whenever Shawn and I ate out at restaurants or fast food places and I even lived on almost nothing but pineapple for a week or two. I would take my own "snack foods" with me (low-fat nilla wafers..the only sugar I allowed myselsf) whenever I went to other people's houses where I knew there would be things like cake and ice cream. It was so amazing the power I had to say no. And yet, my weight would not budge from 117.
I started adding more workouts in...the hour between school and work, I would come home and do at least 30 minutes on the mini stairclimber I had found at a yard sale. When I was doing my homework I would make myself take 5 minute breaks just to workout on that thing again. I started drinking only slimfast shakes for lunch and also began to use laxatives. I tore up my stomach and intestines and was in so much pain from the overuse of the laxatives that my mom had to drive me to the ER and the only thing I could concentrate on, besides the unbearable pain, was the fact that the nurse noticed how slow my resting heart rate was and that I must be a marathon runner or something. That gave me pride. My way of thinking was totally twisted. After I had to stop using the laxatives I began binging. Everything I had tried so hard to resist just became an addiction to me. I could never make myself throw up though and since laxatives were out of the question I just ended up gaining weight. By the time prom came around I was up to 125...7 lb weight gain in less than 2 months. It may not sound like much, but I felt like a cow. When I look at pictures from my senior prom now, I think of how skinny I used to be...and to think, I thought I was the good year blimp that day (I was even on my period so I probably weighed a couple more extra pounds in those photos.)
My problems with food have never really gone away, but over the next couple of years it did get a little easier to find balance. I was still always on a "diet" and wouldn't allow myself some things but I wasn't as crazy about it either. I became a personal trainer at 24 Hour Fitness and learned a lot about nutrition and training. I knew what it took to take off extra pounds if I needed to and so when I got pregnant the first time I thought I could allow myself to eat all the things that I hadn't before because I knew that once the baby was born I could just take it off again. I gained 65 lbs during my first pregnancy. And that wasn't even until the 2nd half. The first half I had only gained about 5 lbs since I was taking 3 dance classes a day at the college and eating pretty well. Well, to make a very long story short...I lost all but 10 lbs before I got pregnant again (8 months later) but then my heart problems began. With a mixture of medication and not being able to work out I found myself not being able to lose the baby weight as fast as I wanted too. Another long story short...I have been a yo-yo loser and gainer these last couple of years. In 2009 I did 2 5ks, a duathlon and a triathlon and weighed 136...still not where I wanted to be, but definitely fitter. Now I weigh 147 and that is just not acceptable. So....here begins my journey to create the me I want to be. It's not about finding myself, or getting back to where I was...because let's face it, I have had so many issues with food and exercise in the past that I just want to start over, begin fresh and take on a new mind set. 2011....this is my year!
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